We had a million questions about our lives...

Here we are, in the best years of our lives, with no way of knowing, when the wheel will stop spinning cause we don't know where we're going...and here we are and it's a go, lets make it last, so cheers to you 'cause this moment's never comin' back!!

Everyday, I'm faced with a million questions!  I have no clue what the answers are...and obviously i've failed on so many tests!!!  Maybe to some people i'm just stupid!  LOL but I like to follow my heart and do what makes me happy.  "I lift my voice to sing out and let the sound of my heart ring out".  Maybe its me not giving a crap, taking crap, or realizing whats more important.  But I haven't quite figured out why some people think they can just treat people the way they do!  

Life is way too short to be miserable and unhappy!  Maybe its me just giving up to easily but whatever it is, i'm not going to just sit there and put up with it because you think I should.  Ummm...sorry but NO!!!  I understand there are going to be hard times in life and stressful situations...duh isn't that what life is all about.  And please name one person that doesn't have trails and tribulations.  But its a matter of picking the battles you want to fight.  I'm fighting the BIGGEST battle i've yet to be faced with, and adding another battle on top of it doesn't sound so appealing!  So NO thank you, i'm not going to gear up!  

I've been going to school for over a month now, and I totally LOVE it!!!  I am taking my pre reqs for the pharmacy technician program.  I turned in my application packet this week for the program.  I am praying and crossing every body part that I can to get into the program.  I was working as a Real Estate Assistant but going to school was too difficult so I found a night job at Target to make it a bit easier.  And really the Real Estate Assistant just wasn't my thing, especially in that kind of atmosphere.  Oh geez, talk about CRAZINESS!!! 

Who ever was dealing the cards out, wasn't very nice to me.  However, things do happen for a reason and I asked for some of those bad cards myself.  So I only have myself to blame but hey look at me now...well I think i'm pretty awesome anyways!  :)

Its CRAZY how fast life changes and how fast minutes turn to hours and hours turn to days!!  Lets all just take a step back for a second and re-evaluate what is most important...and then prioritizing our time and energy fighting for it!!!  If you don't fight for your own life and future then how can you expect others to?  

3 to 5 to 4 now back to 5 and hopefully soon to be 6!!

Its been so much fun having the house full of laughter!

For quite sometime, its only been my mom, dad, and me.  The house was always cleaned and we kinda just did our own thing.  We would go out to eat for suppers and go to a movie at least twice a week.  We just got into such a routine with it just being the 3 of us.  Dad would always pay for me, it was GREAT!!!

In September, Kheagan and Chance came and moved in.  It was the biggest blessing for me!!!  I love having them here and coming home to them at night!!  We have had so much fun!  All we do is laugh and mess around with one another.  

My dad left to South Carolina the beginning of October.  It always sucks when the man of the house leaves but now having 2 boys in the house with the priesthood helps relieve some of those worries.  Don't get me wrong...I MISS my dad when he is gone!!  I hate it.  But it's been nice with the 2 boys here now.  

My dad came back home last night.  Just for a brief visit.  Trey should be home any day now.  So I hope this house doubles with laughter and not too much craziness!!! 

GEOCACHING...WHERE??

This last sunday the 3 of us kids were a little bored after church.  So I came up with an idea to go...GEOCACHING!

Don't worry...there is an app for that.  What is geocaching?  Geocaching is a real-world, outdoor treasure hunting game using GPS-enabled devices. Participants navigate to a specific set of GPS coordinates and then attempt to find the geocache (container) hidden at that location.

We went to 5 places and found 2.  

The first one was:

You are looking for a unique, small-medium sized container.

Located close to Davis Hospital and Medical Center. I am familiar with all of the waiting that goes on while loved-ones wage war with illness, disease, and brokeness. Often, a walk will help restore and refresh you, whether you are taking a break from work, or waiting for someone you care about. So, take a deep breath... and find a shelter from your storm.

We were a little freaked out about it and scared to open the box.  It was just hanging in the middle of tree and in the shape of an acorn.  LOL so funny...

We get back in the car and try to find another one.  But didn't succeed.  So we head back home and pass a park.  I said, "I bet there is when in that park".  So we stopped the car and yup sure enough there was one by the park.  It was on a walking trail.  So we park the car and go for a walk.

We got closer to the clue and looked for about 10 minutes...this is what the clue was:

This is an ammo can located on the new walking path that opened earlier this year.

The original contents of the cache are a log book, pens, play doh,silly putty, suction cup ball, and mini frisbee. This is not a difficult cache but we hope you enjoy it any way.

The hint:

twig in a trunk.

AND WE FOUND IT!!!

We had fun.  It kept us busy for about 3 hours!

What a GREAT Family I have!!

I have the greatest family ever!!!  It's impossible to get EVERYBODY together at the same time because its that big!  In fact, I don't even know some of my cousins because there is just way too many of them!  But when we get together, we have so much fun together.  (I think our common sense kinda goes out the window)

Michonne and Chandee came and slept over last weekend.  We went to the Syracuse Family Fun Center and oh boy did we have fun!!!

SPOOKTACULAR!!

With the boys here, we painted pumpkins and went to the pumpkin walk in Syracuse.  

Sunday Funday!!

I spoke with my bishop this afternoon.  He told me that the Lord is mindful of me and that he feels like its ready to put everything in the past, in the past.  He said that i've already been paying the ultimate price of guilt and shame and that I need to move on and fully partake of the goodness of the gospel.  YIPPY!!!  We continued to speak with each other and he said "is this the same person that I spoke to 3 weeks ago?  You have changed."  

YES, I have changed.  Because i'm actually doing what i'm suppose to be doing.  I feel so good with all of the choices i've been making and for the progress i've made.  I'm so happy!!  

I know that Heavenly Father loves us, each one of us.  He is mindful of us.  He wants us to be happy and to live life to the fulness.  I'm so thankful to know that he has a plan for each one of us.  Even though its hard to see the plan with our eyes, its there.  And he's waiting for us to seek he's guidance.  If you were lost in the woods, what would you do?  The first thing I would do would be to reach for my iPhone and see if I have service and call my parents.  Well you always have the connection you need to speak with our Heavenly Father!  That connection NEveR gets interrupted no matter where you may be in your life.  That's the beauty of it.  

What would you do if you were lost?    

LIFE...IS BeAutiFuL!!!

Life.  What a great opportunity we get to experience so much joy, happiness, sorrow, sadness, excitement, frustration, etc.  Life...is about taking every second you have and enjoying it.  

My life has been full of moments that I don't ever want to take away.  There are some experiences or lessons that I would never want to re-live but I'm glad I went through those times.  I would of never become the woman I'm suppose to become.  

This year has been the hardest time in my life.  It would of been so much easier if I didn't have to experience it but then what.  What would have I learned?  What difference would I know?  I'm finally at the point where I can say I have officially moved on.  I'm glad i'm a strong person and now i'm even stronger.  

Just in the last month, the clouds lifted and I saw the rainbow!  The things that Brendon did to me are not excusable.  Even though the marriage was short and brief, those moments, words, and even the way he touched  me, always playback in my mind.  There hasn't been a day that has past where I remember those things.  I hate it!!!  I literally wish I could erase that portion of my life forever.  Even though what he did to me and how horrible he treated me...I've forgiven him.  I feel sorry for him.  He lost the best thing that EVeR happened to him and he doesn't even realize it.  How can you not feel bad for him?  But I can't live my life feeling bad for him or wondering what if I did something different.  Leaving him was the BEsT thing I could of done for myself.  And now i'm so so happy!!!  FInaLLy!!!  

I don't know what life has in store for me...but whatever it is I can't wait to embrace it.  This last week some things have changed my life around.  And even though its been a week...its been a great one.   Sunday night I was just being myself...doing the same things i've been doing for quite some bit now.  Then POP COMES THE WEE-ZEAL!!! I never expected him to come in my life and I sure as heck wasn't searching for him.  But it happened.  And i'm so grateful.  He has taught me so much in just a weeks timing.  NOW Now....before some people jump the horn on this.  Don't worry its not that serious.  We are obviously still working on figuring each other out and just having fun with one another.  But i'm grateful for the time we've had with each other and getting to know each other better and oh the kisses...oh my gosh the kisses!!  I hope there are more times that we'll be able to spend with each other.   But i'm happy he came in my life when he did.  I don't know what is going to come out of it and what the purpose behind it really is suppose to mean.  But the way he treats me, the kindness, sincerity, and the way he touches me I know I needed to experience those feelings again.  When I see he's face my heart pounds, my hands get a bit sweaty, and my nerves go CraZy!! And I love it!!!  Having those feelings inside me makes me feel like i'm alive again.  I appreciate him so much.  He is an amazing man.  And i'm lucky to be on his arm!!

Yes time will tell and even then...things happen for a reason!!!  Thank you Marcus!!!  For teaching me again.  ;)

I love changes especially when there joyous changes.  

Life is a joyous adventure!!  Wanna join?